I have to find other things to do

Or I will just pay dearly as I have just done now for -15 pips. I feel gutted – but can’t do anything about it now apart from stick to the fucking rules from now on!!! I’m clearly suffering from schizophrenia – there’s the angel on one shoulder, calmly uttering words of wisdom and then there’s the devil on the other shoulder screaming, fuck it, go for it, you are going to be a billionaire! The devil is winning at the moment!